It’s 2:04 AM, sleep nowhere in sight
My mind decides it’s the best time to contemplate life
So now I sit and wonder, about love, family, life
And everything that matters
Or should I say everything that should matter.
I think about the kind of person I want to be
My goals seeming so out of reach
Money? Love? Soulmate? Dream job?
What is it that I need
What is it that I want
I realised it’s time to sort my priorities
Society was extremely clear,
Married by 25, kids by 30
What more would I ever need
I just wish I had such clarity
My whole life ahead of me
So much to accomplish, so much to achieve
So as a modern 21st century feminist
What is it that I need?
A part of me longed to reach the pinnacle of success
The other just wanted love, a friendly soul to hold me,
For once my mind and heart agreed, that
They both were as clueless as they could be.
My deepest, darkest fear crept in
That I’ll just be an insignificant speck in this universe
That I wouldn’t matter, wouldn’t make a difference
So now as I write this, I decide
That today I’m going to end my insecurities
It’s ok if I fail at times,
It’s ok if my prince charming doesn’t save me,
I’m going to save myself
Strive hard to be all that I want to be
Cause right now, my fears are giving me a picture
Of what is it that I need
So right now, I put my heart to rest,
My dream of a mills and boons romance taking a back seat
Right now, I focus on no-one but me
I focus on being happy, on being a better person
The one that I want to be
Working on turning my dreams into a reality,
I focus on the people who already love me
Rather than waiting for a stranger
Who is supposedly the one for me
So now all I have to say to the world
Is you better watch out,
I’ve figured out what I need,
I need to prove myself, for none other than me
And No matter what happens
I’m not accepting defeat
Its 2:58 now, I finally decide to sleep
With a sense of purpose, a fire burning deep
Promising myself, that tomorrow
Will be a new day, a new beginning
I’m going to be all that I can be !
So have you decided? What is it that you need?
You should read “The ONE Thing: The Surprisingly Simple Truth Behind Extraordinary Results” by Gary Keller. I am reading it right now and it really helps to put life, success, and goals into perspective.
Love the poem by the way! Keep blogging!
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thank you so much 🙂 and yes i will definitely give it a read!
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Isn’t it weird when you most want to sleep and are feeling so tired you’re brain’s like: Let’s go over every mistake you’ve ever so you never want to go out again. 😀
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I know right ! :p i totally feel the same way
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